You're Not Behind, You're On Time: Letting Go of Comparison
Have you ever felt like you're constantly playing catch-up in life? That's exactly where I found myself recently—in that uncomfortable space between retiring from American Ninja Warrior and trying to figure out my next chapter.
For years, I've struggled with a deep-seated belief that I wasn't enough. Despite my achievements—six-time American Ninja Warrior, three-time cover girl, Miss Fitness America—internally, I constantly felt behind. Whether I was running with friends and couldn't keep up, or sitting on a boat looking at my friends with their marriages and businesses, the same thought persisted: "I'm not there yet. I'm not enough."
This scarcity mindset wasn't just affecting my personal life; it was blocking my business growth and speaking career too. I knew something had to change.
The Turning Point
Last week, I decided to stop fighting these thoughts and instead lean into them. I wanted to examine why I kept returning to this comfort zone of scarcity and self-doubt, then challenge those beliefs head-on.
I committed to two simple daily practices:
- A 10-minute abundance meditation followed by intentional stillness
- EFT tapping to address limiting beliefs around money and self-worth
What happened next shocked me.
The 7-Day Miracle
Within just seven days of this new routine, unexpected abundance started flowing into my life:
- A surprise box of cookies appeared at my door from a neighbor I'd never spoken to
- A casting director called with an opportunity for a national luxury car commercial (after years of not modeling)
- A woman who had gotten her pull-up from my free workshop—not even my paid program—sent me money through Venmo because she felt I deserved compensation
As my team member pointed out: "The clearer you become, the more instant it becomes."
The Missing Piece
For years I thought hard work was the answer—just push harder, do more. But clarity and self-belief were the missing pieces all along.
In stillness, I got clearer about what I truly wanted. In my affirmations, I literally stated I would "accept money that comes in from random places." And it happened, just like that.
The truth is, we can all work incredibly hard, but without clarity and genuine belief in ourselves, we'll always feel like we're pushing against resistance.
You're Not Behind, You're On Time
If there's one thing I want you to take from my experience, it's this: You are not behind. You are exactly where you need to be.
Stop comparing yourself to others who seem to "have it all." The one thing those people likely have in common? They truly believe in themselves.
That belief is available to you too. It starts with getting still, getting clear, and recognizing that you are enough—right now, exactly as you are.
What area of your life needs more clarity? I'd love to hear your thoughts in the comments.
